Love That Mama Drama: Pit stop

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Pit stop

I woke up this morning with this weird pit in my stomach. It took me a moment to realize why it was there but then it came to me. This month has flown by. In a week, we will be in August. The summer is going so quickly and I feel like I haven't even begun to do the things with the kids that I wanted. I sat up in bed and thought about how wonderful it would be to have the summers off. What I wouldn't do to have a lazy day with them or to get up super early and head to the beach or to a museum or even to the library and just spend time! It's so hard to work and fit all these things in as well. They are growing up right before my eyes and I feel like I just want to stop and do nothing but enjoy them. Soon enough Hannah will be entering the 3rd grade in a new school. I'm beginning to get a little nervous. How will she do? Will she be ok? Will she be nervous? Will she have a hard time? Will I have a hard time? We were so use to our routine at McGuire and our little group. We all looked out for each other and each other's kids. I feel like I have to make new friends all over again as well. Deep breath, in and out and think again. Hannah is outgoing and has a great personality. She seems to have made friends well at camp so it's probably not going to be a problem for her. I'm 37, I can do this too, AND we are BOTH looking forward to a new start at a new school. One that I think is going to suit us real well. My old alma mata. We'll do just fine. Yes we will. I know we will.

We began out weekend at Joey & Jaina's wedding. What a beautiful ceremony and a fun reception. So cute watching them so happy together. I can't believe baby Joey is married! LOL. She was stunning in her beautiful gown and Joey has never looked so happy. Many years of happiness to them. I had a moment that took me by surprise at the wedding however. Apparently it was one that had been bottled up for several years. The night had just begin when "Through the Years" came on by Kenny Rogers. Several minutes later, Dad pulled Mom on the dance floor and began to dance with her. I got up to snap pictures and then it started, without warning I may add. The tears starting streaming down my face and I had no control. I tried to get a grip several times, but to no avail. I think what got me most was that Mom looked so happy and I couldn't stop thinking about what was in Dad's head. I ran to the bathroom where I met Auntie Lynne. God Bless her she tried to help. The more she tried, the more I cried. I was so pissed at myself that I couldn't stop. I had no idea where it came from and I had no idea how to stop it. I went outside for a breath of fresh air and finally got it together. Thank you Jesus. I managed to get a grip and get my head back into the celebration. We all had a fabulous time dancing the night away.

I got to visit with Andrea on Saturday when she came over for some girl time. I hadn't seen her in 7 months. How did that happen? I treasure her friendship and I love when we can have out chats. I think we make each other feel more normal. Sunday evening was filled with Hannah and her girlfriends for yet another sleepover. The night was filled with walks, outside playing, bathing suits in the jacuzzi, nail painting and movies and popcorn. Needless to say I think it may take me a month to catch up on sleep! They were cute though and Hannah enjoyed her time. We are now heading into baby Bailey's Baptism. As the proud God mother I cant wait! I ordered her cake yesterday and I am hoping it comes out as beautiful as Leanne and I envision it.

I am hoping after this weekend that I can take a breath and find some down time with the kids. That's always my plan however I am not very good at achieving it! LOL Guessing I just need to take a second here and there and breath them in when I can!

Have a wonderful day!

This picture is from my photo shoot Thursday night. These little girls are so very cute!