Flying By

This week is already flying by!!! Monday we had Jay's annual Uno's night to raise money for the Jay Lawrence Foundation and for the scholarship that is handed out in his name each year at the high school. This night is always so fun for me because it is all of my favorite people under one roof! It's almost surreal in a sense that the same loyal crew comes and everyone is always smiling and even those people that you haven't ever formally been introduced to, smile and say hello. It is also remarkable how much my family's life has changed in these 8 1/2 years. I am still in awe that Jay received his angel wings EIGHT AND A HALF years ago! Wow.. The first few years this dinner was a way for most of us to come together and drink away the pain of the loss. I am sure those first few years our bar tab was more than our meal tab. Now however, it's all of us "kids" chasing after OUR little ones all over the restaurant! It's comforting and almost peaceful because although there will always be that missing piece of us, we have endured the loss and have continued on. Our families have grown and this tradition will continue on and on and on and someday it will be OUR little ones running up the liquor tab! (UGH!) But for now, we can instill this tradition in our growing families and continue on each year. Jay will always be remembered and treasured as long as we can help it!

The rest of the week is busy with appointments and meetings but I am hoping to get my butt to the gym instead of continuing the work out sessions in my 2 X 4 bedroom! There is only so much you can do and after a while it just doesnt work anymore. Tonight there is a 2 hour lull in my night and i am hoping to head to the Precor machine! We shall see what I can accomplish. There are only so many hours in a day and I am certainly not a wonder woman but it would be nice to try and get some more weight off before Block Island! Darn genetics!

The girls are great! Enjoying the weather and the sun. I believe Miss Layla is teething again.. as the drool and cranky pants have told me so! Otherwise though, they have continued to crack us up. Hannah and her stories just kill me. She has a little girlfriend named, Angelica. She sees her from time to time and will play. The other night in the car she says, "Ma, I just dont get it.... She's too little to be an ant." It took me a minute to realize what she was saying and then I said, "Oh NO Han.. it's not Ant Gelica.. its ANNNN Gelica!" HAHAHAHAHA The kid just totally cracks me up!

I now must start preparing for The Banana's 5th Birthday party.. and I am so not okay with this turning 5 thing! Ahhh such is life and this is the way it goes, but I am surely not happy about my little premature baby turning FIVE! Where does this time go? Why cant I just freeze us here, in this place in time? sigh.....

This is the song that I use to sing to Hannah when she was in my belly... 6 very short years ago..

Biggest Part of Me by Ambrosia

There's a new sun arisin' (In your eyes)

I can see a new horizon (Realize)

That will keep me realizin'

You're the biggest part of me (Stay the night)

Need your lovin' here beside me (Shine the light)

Need you close enough to guide me(For all my life)

I've been hopin' you would find me

You're the biggest part of me

Well Make a wish, baby

and I will make it come true

Make a list, baby

Of the things I'll do for you

Ain't no risk, now, In lettin' my love rain down on you,

So we could wash away the past,

So that we may start anew

(Rainbow) Risin' over my shoulder;

(Love flows) Gettin' better as we're older

(All I know) All I want to do is hold her

She's the life that breathes in me

(Forever) Got a feelin' that forever

(Together) We are gonna stay together

(For better) For me, there's nothin' better

You're biggest part of me

Well Make a wish, baby

Well, and I will make it come true

Make a list, baby

Of the things I'll do for you

Ain't no risk, now,

In lettin' my love rain down on you,

So we could wash away the past,

So that we may start anew

More than an easy feelin', She brings joy to me

How can I tell you What it means to me?

Flow like a lazy river For an eternity

I've finally found someone

Who believes in me, And I'll never leave

Make life grand

Well Make a wish, baby

Well, and I will make it come true

Make a list, baby

Of the things I'll do for you

Ain't no risk, now,

In lettin' my love rain down on you,

So we could wash away the past,

So that we may start anew(Beside me)

Need your lovin' here beside me

(To guide me) Keep it close enough to guide me

(Inside of me) From the fears that are inside of me

You're the biggest part of me(Forever)

Got a feelin' that forever (Together)

We are gonna stay together (Forever)

From now until forever

You're the biggest part of me

You're the life that breathes in me

You're the biggest part of me

You changed my life

You made it right

And I'll be a servant to you

For the rest of my life

You're the biggest part of me....